Since my last update, things are slightly more hopeful.
Last Thursday I had lunch with my former coworkers and friends. In addition to hanging out and catching up, my former boss wanted to talk to me about some project possibilities. Long story short, I have been doing temporary work for C2F again for the past week.
It is surprisingly liberating to finally have income again. This is only a temporary situation, but a welcome one. I don’t feel quite as stuck at home, with not even enough money to drive anywhere.
My intention is to continue to look for work outside the Metro area. Tuesday I will drive to Salem for my first interview. Since last I wrote, I have applied for eight jobs. All are government jobs, and most are in Salem. They are positions I feel pretty confident to fill. The biggest challenge is to stand out. Government jobs always attract huge numbers of applicants. Many are likely qualified like I am. This doesn’t worry me. If I’m meant to get a particular job, I figure it will happen.
I rarely listen to the radio or music of any kind. Today while driving home from work I heard a great song on Air1 Radio. The chorus delivers a particularly encouraging message. Several other songs also caught my attention in a positive way, but the prize definitely goes to Every Time You Run by Manafest. Most music groups and artists are unknown to me, and this was the first time I heard this song.
Here are the lyrics to the chorus:
Every time you run, every time you hide
Every time it hurts, every time you cry
Every time you run away, every time you hide your face
And it feels so far away, I’m right here, with you
Containing a very familiar theme to me, the song reminds me of one of my favorite repeating ideas in Scripture. It is best summed up by the following verse.
The Lord is near to the brokenhearted
and saves the crushed in spirit.
Phew. Thank God it is true. If He favored the beautiful, the strong, the intelligent and successful… then I’d be the last to receive any attention from Him. It will never cease to amaze me that the most powerful Being who exists – the One who created everything we know and see – favors those who are weak and desperately in need of of Him. The most ridiculous example of “opposites attract.”